Absence makes the heart grow fonder...?

Last night CG and I went and saw the Kurt Cobain exhibit at a local museum with another couple.  CG and the male half of the couple are planning a road trip later this month, for a week, all the way up through the northern parts of BC and possibly southern Alaska. 

Previously, I was pretty okay with CG being gone for a week.  However, hearing the guys discuss their travel plans, and talking about being prepared for blizzards, bears, and breakdowns, got me a little freaked out.  And then the internal struggle started.  Of course, CG and I are both independent people.  We can do what we want (besides cheating, obviously).  I absolutely would not stop him from going on a trip with his friends.  I actually probably would enjoy some me time and some extra friends time while he was away.  I believe that it's good to miss your partner once in a while.  Absence makes the heart grow fonder.  It makes the reunions that much sweeter, and helps prevent taking each other for granted.

However, this weird--dare I say--worried, feeling reared its ugly head, especially when I realized that they would have limited cell service.  They were literally going into the middle of nowhere.  What if something happened?  What if they didn't come back safe and sound?  And then I realized that I might miss him more than I thought.  I actually like having him around.  We didn't see each other this week for 3 days in a row, and I definitely felt his absence.  It is such a strange sensation for me...usually there comes a point where I want the guy to leave so I can be by myself.  I usually get exhausted from long periods of being social, but not with CG.  It's easy being around him.  I don't feel as drained, like I need to recharge.

The great thing about all this is that after I reluctantly opened up to him, he was kind and reassured me.  And he told me he notices when I'm not around (guyspeak for he misses me).  That made me feel better, just to talk about it.  I love how it's starting to feel like a real partnership.  With my non-committing ex, I was super into him, but also constantly filled with anxiety.  I was always trying to "read" him to see if he was going to let me in a little bit more.  With CG, there's none of that garbage.  I feel I have someone who cares about me as much as I care about him, wants to be with me, and is going to be there, for both the good times and bad.

To The Non-Student:  What about our story did you want to hear?