I am kind of freaking out. I haven't heard from CG since Thursday night. He was planning on leaving Las Vegas this morning, and he told me he'd let me know when he left. Hotel checkout was 11am, and it is now mid-afternoon and no word.
These past 9 days without him have been interesting. The first 5 were kinda great. I got friendly with my Tivo, did a lot of knitting, and had a couple of days where getting dressed meant putting on clean pajamas. (I love pajamas, and if I'm not leaving the apartment, I don't put on real clothes. Don't worry, I'm not depressed.) Anyway, then the week started and it was harder than average. Extreme embarrassment Tuesday, a presentation Wednesday, extra long day Thursday, and helping out at the Science Center on Friday (fun hanging with kids, not fun giving the same spiel 100x). Add some PMS to the mix, and we have a recipe for a few tears.
Anyway, I have enjoyed the independence, but at the same time I've felt kind of alone. Not only has CG been physically absent, but we haven't gotten to talk much either. He called Thursday night, but he woke me up so I was a little grouchy with him. Wednesday we talked briefly online during the day, but that night he was partying so I didn't hear from him again. I don't want to be the clingy girlfriend bothering him 24/7 needing reassurance, and I know he's been super busy, but I feel a little neglected. Also, he knew I was nervous about him going to Las Vegas of all places, and it would have been nice if he'd been a little more attentive. I don't need any grand gestures, but a random "I love you" text would have done wonders.
I'm not really sure what to do when I do hear from him. Part of me wants to push him away and ignore him because I feel a little bit of rejection. I am tempted to tell him not to come over tomorrow when he gets back. But that would be punishing him, which I'm not sure is the most mature move. And then there's the part of me that wants to give him a hug so big that he falls over. And he's not a small guy, so that's saying a lot!
I would suggest the hug option. :-) And then you can bring up how you worried about him when you didn't hear from him when he told you he'd call you. It's a fair complaint--not crazy at all. Women like to be kept in the loop, and we worry when we're met with silence. Totally fair. So, just let him know that.
ReplyDeleteThank you. :) We worked it out, more about it soon.
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