I am having one of those days where I am bothered about something, but don't want to come across as the needy girlfriend, so I am trying not to say it. I don't know if my feelings, however valid (because all feelings are valid) are reasonable. But not saying something is often worse than getting it out and properly dealt with, needy or not. By keeping my emotions to myself, particularly the ones that are more than passing annoyance, I risk letting them fester and grow into major pain, sadness, or anger.
CG is in Vegas again and I'm having a hard time. He's only been there since yesterday, and he gets back tomorrow, but I haven't seen him since Saturday so it feels much longer. We talked yesterday online while he was traveling, but then he signed off to take his final flight and I haven't heard from him since. I know he's ok thanks to Facebook, but really, would it be so hard to send a quick message to me letting me know he's arrived? I worry a little when people I love travel.
I think this is magnified by the fact that on Tuesday night the conversation lagged and then he signed off without saying goodbye. Although not required, I think it's nice to say goodnight, especially before a trip.
I know that he is a great guy, and he treats me well. He is kind and loving, but he has spent more time out of relationships than in them. (And those times weren't dating-single so much as alone-single.) I want to give him the benefit of the doubt, because maybe he just isn't used to having someone around to be concerned. I'm sure he didn't mean to upset me. But I don't know how to bring it up without sounding like a clingy whiner. Yeah, I miss him after only 5 days. Not because I can't live without him, but because I really, truly enjoy having him around.
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